In a bombshell interview this morning on Good Morning America, former Bachelor Colton Underwood came out as gay. One of the first questions fans asked was: How does Cassie Randolph feel about the revelation?
After choosing Cassie at the end of The Bachelor season, they dated for over a year before announcing a split in May 2020.
“I would like to say sorry for how things ended. I messed up,” Colton said on GMA. “I made a lot of bad choices.”
But he insists he was in love with the blond beauty. “That only made it harder and more confusing for me,” he told Robin Roberts. “If I’m being very honest, I loved everything about her and it’s hard for me to articulate exactly what my emotions were in going through that relationship with her was because I obviously had an internal fight going on.”
Nevertheless, he understands it could have been hurtful to the women involved, particularly Cassie. “I would just say that I’m sorry from the bottom of my heart,” he said. “I’m sorry for any pain and emotional stress I caused. I wish it wouldn’t have happened the way it did. I wish that I would have been courageous enough to fix myself before I broke anybody else.”
The interview aired early this morning. “Obviously, this year has been a lot for a lot of people,” he told Roberts. “It’s probably made a lot of people look themselves in the mirror and figure out who they are and what they’ve been running from or what they’ve been putting off in their lives. For me, I’ve ran from myself for a long time; I’ve hated myself for a long time. And, I’m gay,”
He then said that he “came to terms with that earlier this year and have been processing it.”
Colton’s interview was a big step in the process. He said that “the next step in all of this was sort of letting people know. I’m still nervous.”
Colton was on the 2019 season of The Bachelor, after first appearing on the ABC franchise in the 2018 cycle of The Bachelorette. Between the two he was on the summer spinoff series Bachelor in Paradise before going on to lead his own season.
Before his elimination on The Bachelorette, Colton revealed to Becca Kufrin that he was a virgin. His Catholic values were the primary motivator, he said at the time.
“The thing I realized is that everyone who asks me why I’m a virgin, they expect this simple answer. They want a reason. And my reason is complicated,” he explained to a contestant on The Bachelor. “I think that’s one thing people never understand is the intimacy that goes along with what you’ve experienced.”
Colton told Roberts that he “could never give anybody a good enough answer about why.” While he cited Catholic values at the time, his explanation is very different now. “The truth is I was ‘the virgin Bachelor’ because I was gay, and I didn’t know how to handle that.”
As for why The Bachelor star spent three separate seasons on the franchise searching for love with a woman, he explained: “I put myself in really bad situations on purpose. I put myself in these situations so I could try to force myself to be straight.”
Colton found a supposed match during his season of The Bachelor with contestant Cassie Randolph. The two later broke up after Underwood recovered from COVID-19.
In his tell-all book about his journey as the Bachelor, Underwood said that he “battled the gay [rumors]. They’d say, ‘he’s gay, he’s hiding it.’ No. But I’ve been there, done that now. I finally found somebody I really just want to be with. I want my life to be with Cassie. I know who I am. And that’s really all that matters.”
Colton revealed in a podcast with blogger Reality Steve that he was taking medication for anxiety and depression while filming his season of The Bachelor.
Back then he “used to wake up in the morning and pray for him to take the gay away,” he explained in the GMA interview. “I used to pray for him to change me.”
Despite being painted as a controlling and angry person by the producer of The Bachelor, as he claimed in the podcast, he has moved forward in his journey and is now closer to God.
“I can now wake up and pray to God and I can actually have faith and I can go into church and be present; not have it be conditional on this topic of, ‘Take this off my plate and I’ll still worship you and I’ll still be there,’” He told Roberts.
Colton admits he still hasn’t had a relationship with a man. “I still haven’t had an emotional connection with a man. I’ve never allowed myself to and it’s never been, sort of, in my cards to let myself get there. And, I want to more than anything. I’m looking for someone who can push me and challenge me in all the great ways.”
He left the interview by sharing advice to his younger self and any other individual who feels uncomfortable with who they are. “You’re going to get through it. Keep fighting for you. Keep choosing you, every morning. And, when the time is right and you’re ready, do it on your own time.”
Now Colton is moving on from his Bachelor days. The Hollywood Reporter is filming a reality TV show with Netflix.
Filming has been underway for a number of weeks, now, but Netflix declined to comment when THR reached out.