Just shy of Kelly Osbourne’s four-year-sobriety anniversary, the Project Runway judge experienced a nervous breakdown leading to relapse during the very end of quarantine.

Kelly broke the news over an Instagram story last week. “This is a little hard for me to talk about, but I’ve always promised you that I will always be honest with you about where I’m at and what’s going on in my road to recovery.” She spoke through a strained voice as she came clean. “I relapsed. Not proud of it. But I am back on track.”

This isn’t Kelly’s first time speaking about addiction. Last year she shared that she heavily relied on alcohol and drugs – including opioids, tranquilizers, and marijuana since she was 13. What pulled her away from using it was the “survivor’s guilt” she felt after burying other friends with addictions like Amy Winehouse, who died in 2011 at 27-years-old.

In the wake of Demi Lovato’s 2018 overdose, Kelly said, “When you want it, you will get it. There’s no such thing as embarrassment when you’re an addict. You skip that and go straight to shame. You shame yourself so hardcore.”

Kelly spoke candidly with Extra this week about her own relapse: “I don’t know why my nervous breakdown happened at the end of the lockdown, I made it all the way through, everything was great and my life was perfect. I’m that girl that when everything is going great I need to f*** it up a little and make everything a little bit worse in my life. I am an addict and had thought that I had a enough time under my belt and I could drink like a normal person, and it turns out I cannot and I will never be normal. I don’t know why I even tried it. It’s not for me and it took me a matter of days and I was like done, not doing this.”

The 36-year-old daughter of Ozzy and Sharon Osbourne has led an open conversation about addiction for years and considers her family to be a loving support system. Kelly claims to be happy with her long-time boyfriend, Erik Bragg, to love her body since her recent weight loss and is looking forward to future milestones in her career.

For now, Kelly promises to be back on track for a life of sobriety. A deeper look into her life with addiction will be revealed on her new podcast “The Kelly Osbourne and Jeff Beacher Show“, available May 4.